My Perfume Doubles As Mace

A boy sprawled next to me on the bus, elbows out, knee pointing sharp into my thigh.
He frowned at me when I uncrossed my legs, unfolded my hands
and splayed out like boys are taught to: all big, loose limbs.
I made sure to jab him in the side with my pretty little sharp purse.
At first he opened his mouth like I expected him to, but instead of speaking up he sat there, quiet, and took it for the whole bus ride.
Like a girl.

Once, a boy said my anger was cute, and he laughed,
and I remember thinking that I should sit there and take it,
because it isn’t ladylike to cause a scene and girls aren’t supposed to raise their voices.
But then he laughed again and all I saw
was my pretty little sharp nails digging into his cheek
before drawing back and making a horribly unladylike fist.
(my teacher informed me later that there is no ladylike way of making a fist.)

When we were both in the principal’s office twenty minutes later
him with a bloody mouth and cheek, me with skinned knuckles,
I tried to explain in words that I didn’t have yet
that I was tired of having my emotions not taken seriously
just because I’m a girl.

Girls are taught: be small, so boys can be big.
Don’t take up any more space than absolutely necessary.
Be small and smooth with soft edges
and hold in the howling when they touch you and it hurts:
the sandpaper scrape of their body hair that we would be shamed for having,
the greedy hands that press too hard and too often take without asking permission.

Girls are taught: be quiet and unimposing and oh so small
when they heckle you with their big voices from the window of a car,
because it’s rude to scream curse words back at them, and they’d just laugh anyway.
We’re taught to pin on smiles for the boys who jeer at us on the street
who see us as convenient bodies instead of people.

Girls are taught: hush, be hairless and small and soft,
so we sit there and take it and hold in the howling,
pretend to be obedient lapdogs instead of the wolves we are.
We pin pretty little sharp smiles on our faces instead of opening our mouths,
because if we do we get accused of silly women emotions
blowing everything out of proportion with our PMS, we get
condescending pet names and not-so-discreet eyerolls.

Once, I got told I punched like a girl.
I told him, Good. I hope my pretty little sharp rings leave scars.



by: theapplepielifestyle

Reflective Judgment: Concepts of Justification and Their Relationship to Age and Education

Kitchener & King

Piaget’s theory of cognitive development is the most referred to when it comes reasoning ability, but there is little discussion about the development of reasoning ability beyond adolescence. In 1977, King and Kitchener develop a seven-stage model of post-adolescent reasoning styles which is called “Reflective Judgment.” This model outlines the process of how a person’s reasoning ability develops over time, spread out in 7 sequential stages. Each stage represents different assumption of knowledge and reality, and how it affects the justification of beliefs. Lower stages are characterized by immense, unexamined dependence on an authority figure, and this develops into higher stages in term of its complexity, comprehensiveness, and ability to consciously reflect on one’s own beliefs. 

An initial test of this model was conducted previous to this study, employing a series of pilot interviews to 18 subjects between 18 and 35 years old. Each subject was presented a problem revolving around 6 intellectual topics, including scientific, religious and historical issues. They then proceed to give their opinions and defend it. The result of this initial study is 1) subjects’ responses could be scored at each of these 7 stages, and 2) older subjects score at higher stages that did younger ones. It was then followed by this study, which is intended to find out whether or not relative judgment is related to age and education, and if so, to what this differences might be accounted for.  To find out about the second question, four additional factors which are related to intellectual development were also tested. These factors are verbal ability, formal operation, socio-economic status and verbal fluency.

There are 60 subjects; 20 high school students, 20 college freshman and 20 graduate students, half of them are male and half of them are female. Each subject was tested on the five variables mentioned above.  The result for reflective judgment was that highschool students mainly scored between 2 and 4, college students scored between 2.5 and 5.5, and graduate students put themselves between 4 and 7. 

For the other 4 factors, meaningful differences between groups were found for verbal ability, socio-economic status and word count, while for formal operation, all groups were found to be more or less on the same level. To find out whether or not these differences are contributing factor to reflective judgment, analysis of covariance was then run with verbal ability, socio-economic status and word count act as covariate (held constant). Aside from verbal ability, for which the result for highschool and college students were almost equal, the result for the other groups on each covariates still shows significant differences. It was then followed by analysis of covariance for combining covariates, for which the result was more or less the same. 

The result for this study therefore can be concluded.  Reflective judgment is related to age and educational level; older and more educated individual tend to have a more complex and sophisticated way in justifying belief than their younger, less educated individual. This cannot be statistically accounted to the other factors related to intellectual development; even though verbal ability was found to be closely related to reflective judgment, differences of reflective judgment’s scores between groups cannot be solely accounted to this factor. It will be the task of future researcher to find out whether or not this is a result of uncovered, confounding trait, or that those variables merely covary within given population. 

Considering this is a study that judge, compares and rank people in term of their justification of belief, the information in this paper was presented very well without being insulting. Regarding the methods itself, the author did a quite extensive explanation on how the study is done, although more information is needed on the scoring protocol. However the sampling procedure creates a room for a debate since the age and education factors are confounded. It is questionable whether or not age and education affect it separately. To find out about that, the study will have to gather sampling which includes subjects in all age, in every educational level.  Unless the age limit of the subjects is set to be older, the study must include 18 years old graduate students, which is not impossible but the sample will not be statistically reliable. The author itself also provided explanation on why the confounding age and educational level are still reliable.

Further and more detailed information regarding this topic is provided in a presentation below.

Kitchener, K. S., & King, P. M. (1981). Reflective judgment: Concepts of justification and their relationship to age and education. Journal of Applied Developmental Psychology, 2, 89-116.

 

Bonjour, Brussels

Brussels is my first international travel, which is the reason I messed up so bad. I mean, I did travel from Indonesia to Netherland but that was funded and planned by dependable people who know what they are doing. I was like, ok let's try doing it this way or that way, and if it didn't work out, screw it. 

If you are travelling in Europe and you made your planning well, you can do it really cheaply actually. Now, by no means I am an expert in travelling whatsoever, but I did my fair share of searching and people can learn from my failure. There is this thing called Eurail pass, which let you travel by train through countries you are interested in for a selected time period, but it is mostly aimed at traveller residing outside of Europe. There are also Eurolines, which is travelling by bus and can get as cheap as €9, but you have to order it 15 days in advance. 

I did not use the two options I mentioned above, because 1) I decided to go only a week before, and 2) I was too lazy to read everything and man those passes do have a lot of requirements. It is not actual travelling anyway, there is this religious event I had to attend in Belgie. So I decided to use the regular train. You can order the ticket online, buy it at the counter or at the ticket machine. It is way cheaper to buy it at the machine than the counter though, especially if you have OV-chipkaart. Me, I don't have personal OV-chipkaart yet at the time so I decided to just buy it online. It cost me €23 for a one-way trip. Meh. 

I departed from Utrecht Centraal station and arrived at Brussels-South railway station in ... 3 hours? It was quite fast, and roomy. There are so few people on the train, unlike Indonesian trains. But Indonesian trains have electrical plugs you can use for free so I guess 1-1. 

Now, Brussels. Where do I start? The station I arrived at, Brussels-South, is the biggest railway station in Belgium and primarily handles international traffic. In Dutch, its called Brussel-Zuid, but in French its called Bruxelles-Midi. Why does everything in France sound prettier? Anyway, people only speak Dutch at the parts of Belgium neighboring Netherlands and by the time I arrived in Brussels everyone is already speaking French, not that it made any difference. I liked how exotic my surrounding sounded, but it was difficult because I suck at pronouncing French words and I ended up bringing notebook everywhere since I didn't want to get lost for pronouncing a place's name wrong.

I planned to rent a room in a youth hostel I searched on the internet, it was supposed to be much cheaper that way, but my boots were killing me and I was to tired to figure out how to get there, so I just rent a room in a hotel near the station instead. Don't ask me the price. But the room was nice and I need a good place to finish my assignments though so yay. 

That was the fish and chips I bought for dinner, and the portion was so big it lasted until breakfast. I got like a tray of it for €5. I flirted with the guy selling it (what even) and the owner of the hotel said next time I went to Belgium with a guy she will give me a nice room with private shower so I can 'have fun'. Ha ha. The chocolate there are really expensive, or maybe because I checked out the wrong place.  But the bakery was exceptionally excellent. Even croissants I bought at convenient store tasted like heaven. 

And yes, I brought my assignments. Mind you it was not holidays - I had loads of assignment and if it was not for this event I won't even consider going outside of my bedroom. 

The next day, I departed from Bruxelles-Midi to Cambron Casteau. I had to change train halfway and almost got on the wrong train, but fortunately I met a nice lady (who weirdly enough can speak English since I was at the middle-of-nowhere part of Belgium) who let me know about it. The train ride was probably the most beautiful I've ever experienced in my life - from Utrecht to Brussels it was mostly urban areas, but from Brussels to Cambron it was beautiful farm and meadow and hills and ... gosh, it was so pretty.

Cambron Casteau is a station in the province of Brugellete. I was going to Pairi Daiza, a big botanical garden located in Brugellete, for that event I was talking about. From Cambron Casteau I can just walk to the garden. I was wearing my traditional outfit for the day and people were looking at me like I was lost, but I was too happy to care.

Pairi Daiza itself is usually closed in winter, but they open just for us. There is a big Balinese Hindu temple located in the middle of it, where European Balinese Hindu usually gather and held their religious event. It was nice meeting people from my homeland, and I got free food.

 

Later that afernoon, I went back to Brussels. I spend the evening, the night and the next morning doing assignment (how lame can I be), but in the afternoon I gave up and decided to explore the city .. as far as my useless boots allowed me to. I found a castle and ate more croissant, but sadly didn;t get the chance to visit Maneken Piss or the Notre Dame. 

Maybe next time. 

Then I went back to Utrecht. I was addicted to Lily Allen's Somewhere Only We Know at the time, so I listened  to it repeatedly. Imagine sitting at the train by yourself, watching the scenery passing by, listening to that song - I felt like I'm supposed to cry but I don't know what to cry about. *sigh* First world problem, everyone. 

The second time I went to Brussels was not that exciting since I hitchhiked halfway through with a friend and I was only there for a day, but the experience in the city beat it all. 

 

Bet the people of Brussels never expect they will witness this ritual held at the very front of their houses. 

Note for self: MAKE A BETTER PLANNING NEXT TIME.

 

LOOKING BEHIND THE GENDER GAP IN SCIENCE

         The sexism-laden stereotype that Science is a “male” field in which men are better than women has existed since the dawn of time. Women used to be prohibited to even enter a university building, let alone to be involved in academic activities. Nowadays, however, men and women are ensured fairly equal chances to pursue career and education they desire. The myth that girls are innately worse in Science has been long since debunked, and gender differences and segregation have gradually disappeared from many academic setting, especially in developed parts of the world. 

 However, this does not seem to go hand in hand with how women are currently being portrayed in Science. Despite many efforts done to balance the scale, young women are generally very underrepresented in science, technology, engineering and mathematics fields of study and labor markets. UNESCO’s Institute for Statistic (2012), for instance, reported that the representation of women in Science research is less than 50% in nearly all regional, with the highest being in Latin America and The Caribbean where females comprise 45,2% of the researchers. Not to mention that since the Nobel Prize was established in 1901, from 853 Nobel laureates, only 44 of them are female. With women being half of the world’s population, this fact suggests a gap that is interesting to be investigated. 

An even more interesting finding was reported in Vansteenkiste, Soenens, Sierens, Luyckx, & Lens (2009) about a correlation between autonomous motivation and gender. They claimed that female students tend to show ‘a more adaptive academic pattern of functioning’; they are less likely to procrastinate and cheat, are more efficient in using time and environment, and tend to obtain higher grades than their male counterparts. In short, girls can be really great learners if they want to. Yet in Science, they continue being inferior to their male counterparts. If it is already established that it is not a matter of opportunities or genetic, and girls apparently do not lack in motivation either, what could possibly be the reason behind this gender gap in Science?

Indeed, most educational institutions in recent decades will not openly condone any form of gender discrimination, and the ones that do are easily faced with scrutiny by their fellow educators. Yet it probably has to be noted that policies by educational institution probably only comprises small percentage of the total influence in a student’ educational achievement. Each race, nationality and its respective society has their own perception on what field is deemed suitable for each gender, and this presumption affects an individual’s expectation of success and achievement. Women are less likely to pursue science related careers if they grow up in an environment whose gender expectation for women put less subjective values on these fields (Eccles, 1994). On the other hand, there is also a positive correlation between a daughter’s educational performance and their mother’s education and career, suggesting intergenerational transmission of gender identities from mothers to daughters (San Roman and Goiricilaya, 2012).Therefore, gender roles in society definitely has some influence on the involvement of girls in Science. It is very likely that if in a certain society a woman’s right is oppressed, their contribution in Science will not be much appreciated either. 

Such gender discrimination is mostly identified with developing countries, yet in developed, modern countries where women are granted equal rights as men in all walks of life, similar trend is still apparent. In regard to this, Osborne, Simon and Collins (2003) have defined what they called as an attitude toward science as “the feelings, beliefs and values held about an object that maybe the enterprise of science, school science, the impact of science on society or scientist themselves”.  Findings of various studies (Osborne, Simon and Collins; 2003) confirmed that the girls generally have less positive attitude toward Science than boys. They avoid being involved in Science although they have the potential to be as successful as boys in it, and are provided just as much of opportunities. 

A lot of causes can be behind this negative attitude. Firstly, Science is often perceived as practical subjects with no cultural significance. Since Science is compulsory in school, teachers are less pressured to promote their subject and consequently, it comes across as something useful instead of something fulfilling (Osborne, et al, 2003). Students’ involvement in it are ensured while they are in school, but it declined as soon as they enter college and continued to during their career, since for most young people in modernized countries, education and job are entitled to self-fulfillment and self-actualization (Osborne, et al, 2003; Schreiner and Sjoberg, 2005). 

Secondly, they simply assume that Science is not the right path for them. This self-perception can go in two different ways. First, it is because they think they are good at something else. Girls are reported to be able to compare various fields, progressively contemplating their ability and choosing what objects will suit them best (Osborne, et al, 2003). Girls also tend to have strong both verbal and math skill, and consequently are attracted to different careers (Azar, 2010). Second, it is because they believe they are not good at Math. Girls are prone to anxiety and they who endorse the negative stereotype about women in Science tend to show a drop in their performance (Azar, 2010) which later manifests into avoidance toward Science related occupations. 

Thirdly, they do not want to be identified as a ‘Science’ person. Young woman recognize the importance of Science for society, yet they are not interested in becoming a scientist or working in science (Schreiner and Sjoberg, 2005). It is because from their point of view Science is portrayed as boring practical job, and girls are more interested in jobs that offer late-modern values such as creativity or money (Schreiner and Sjoberg, 2005).

It is apparent that the lack of involvement of women in Science is not a matter of cognitive ability, motivation, or opportunities. Both developing and developed countries have similar problem. Gender-role during the upbringing of a girl gives a lot of influence on how she might or might not take opportunities handed to them. On the contrary, in cases where gender-inequality is practically nonexistent, girls’ attitude toward science takes turn on the steering wheel instead. In the end this will cause chain reaction because to have more women in Science, a more positive and attractive portrayal of Science are essential, and that can be attained by the involvement of more women in Science.

References:

Azar, B. (2010). Math+ culture= gender gap. American Psychological Association, 41(7).

Institute for Statistics (2012). Women in Science. No. 23. UNESCO.

Eccles, J. S. (1994). Understanding women’s educational and occupational choices. Psychology of Women Quarterly, 18, 585-609.

Osborne, J., Simon, S., & Collins, S. (2003). Attitudes towards science: a review of the literature and its implications. International Journal of Science Education, 25(9), 1049-1079.

San Roman, A.G & Goiricilaya, S. 2012. “Gender Gap in PISA Test Scores: The Impact of Social Norms and The Mother’s Transmission of Role Attitudes.” IZA Discussion paper no. 6338, February 2012.

Schreiner, C., & Sjøberg, S. (2007). Science education and youth's identity construction - two incompatible projects? In: D. Corrigan, J. Dillon, and R. F. Gunstone (eds.). The Re-Emergence of Values in Science Education (pp. 231-248). Rotterdam, Sense.

Vansteenkiste, M, et al. (2009). Motivational Profiles From a Self-Determination Perspective: The quality of motivation matters. Journal of Educational Psychology, 101, 671-688.

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